11 months

My dearest Logan,

    With your birthday coming around the corner, this month has been full of you growing up. You now walk like a champion. In fact, you run (or try to run) more than you walk. If you fall, you just crawl to the nearest thing and pull yourself back up to standing so you can walk again. 

     You use your hands to say 'all done' when you are finished eating. Half the time I forget that's what you are saying and I think you are just waving at me. I wonder if you will get more sign language as time goes by. I tend to forget to sign as much as I did with your brother. 

     You are a great baby. You laugh a lot and get tickled at the silliest things. You love to watch and laugh at Miles. You have so much patience.... Unless you are tired. When you are tired, you don't take anything and you have a temper. When something happens that you don't like you scream and throw yourself on the floor. It is funny to see you assert your will on us. When you want something, you are super good at making it known. Especially when you are tired. 

      You are super inquisitive. You will walk and crawl all over the house, as long as someone is in the room with you, just to see what else you can find to chew on.  You love to play at the feet of Miles. I think you do this because you love to play wth him and he always drops the best things. You watch Miles and have already learned so much from him. 

    Speaking of learning, you mimic so much now. If I click my tongue, you do too. If I growl, you do too (and you often do this when you don't like whatever is going on). If I make kissing sounds, you try to do it too. It is really fun to see you trying new things. 

      You FAVORITE game is peek-a-boo. You will play this game with anything-from a door to a blanket, your hands, toys, or whatever you can find to hide in or under. You also LOVE pillows. You love to go over to pillows and lay on them. If any pillow is on the floor, you will walk or crawl over to it, just to lay on it for a second or two. 

     You have really started to develop your own personality and it is super fun to see.  You walk around and talk you baby talk to everything. We went to the store and you just walked around chatting to whatever fun thing you saw. It was really cute. 

     I can't wait to see what the future brings. Please grow up well. Be strong in your faith and be a protector of the weak. Be a force of good and of change in this world. Grow up to be a good man, a man like daddy, who loves family and is brave and loyal and a hard worker. Please grow up well, but not too soon. Stay little while you can. 

      I love you Logan Walter. You are my favorite Logan in the whole world. I can't imagine our family without you and I know you were always meant to be with us. Thank you for your sweet giggles, loving smile, cuddles, and curiosity. You are so loved. 

Love, momma

Logan playing in a tent 

Playing under brother

Playing peek-a-boo

Loving pillows

7 months

Logan, 

   Unfortunately this month has been characterized by being sick. First at the end of thanksgiving, you got Roseola. This is a high fever followed by a weird rash. Then you got a head cold and were stuffy and miserable for about a week and a half. And now you caught another head cold that is runny nose and fevers and coughing. You and your brother have been nothing but sick for the whole last month. My prayers each night seem to be the same- let the kids get better and let them sleep so I can. It is such a recurrent thing that even your brothers prayers sound like this, "bless monny to not be sick, feel better. Bless baby logan to not be sick, feel better, sleep good. Bless Minos to sleep good, feel better. Bless daddy work. Name of Jesus, amen." I am hopeful that you are getting all your sick out now so you can be a healthy kiddo later. 

     Other than being sick, you have really started to realize you can move around. You crawl and find things. You see something you want and go to it. It is fun to see you follow your brother around and trying to play with him. You crawl or scoot over to his toys and pick them up. I think you are wondering why they are so cool to Miles when all you do with them is  out them in your mouth. 

     You have such a little personality. You have decided to be weary of strangers when they hold you. You like them, but only as long as they don't touch you. After about an hour, you warm up and enjoy playing with whoever is around. 

     You still love eating. You want to eat anything we are, and try to eat your brothers food all the time (although to be fair, he DOES leave it on the floor so doesn't that make it your food too?). 

     You growl at anything you don't like or want. This means that when you are hungry and I am not feeding you fast enough, you growl. When you want your binky but can't get it in yor mouth, You growl. When you want to be held, your growl. It is really cute, but I wonder when you will start to say more sounds and words. 

     I love you so much my sweet baby. Merry Christmas. I can't believe you are already 7 months old. Feels like you have always been here but that there is no way you are so close to a year old already. Thank you for filling out home with more love, happiness, laughter, and fun. I can't wait to see you and your brother grow up and play together. I have a feeling I k in for lots of surprises. 

Love, 

   Your mama

5 months!

My little Logan,

   You are a sweet bundle of a baby. You roll ALL THE TIME now. Right now you are laying on your belly in front of me, eating your hand, and scooting back and forth trying to eat anything you can touch. You have gone from being a passive watcher to an active participant. You want to touch, hold, and eat everything in sight. My hope for you is that you never lose this zeal for life. That you always have a wonder for the world and for new things. I hope you have an interest in how things work and remember to question the world around you. 

     It is so funny to see how engaged you are. You LOVE to watch Miles. No matter what you are doing (with the exception of being in the car), if you hear Miles you stop what you are doing and watch him. Yesterday Dad took him to get Aunt Bailey and you were so confused as to why you had no entertainment. It was strangely quiet and you were fussier than normal. 

     Even with all the big things you are doing, you are still my baby. You still kick your legs like a newborn, like to be rocked and swaddled like a newborn, and you still love your binky. I love you so much Logan Walter. You have my heart. Completely. 

     I can't wait to see what changes time will bring us. You have created a unique viewpoint for me. With Miles I could only guess at the future and wonder, but with you I get to see the future in your brother and be excited to see the same things in you. I see Miles at 3 and wonder what things you will like when you are his age... I see him talking and playing and feel excited to see that same stage with you. I remember what Miles was like at 1 and 2 and I feel excitement at getting to do it again, but with you! You give me a perspective I have never had before. I get to enjoy your little moments now because I have already done them and I remember they go too fast but I also get to see glimpses of the future and be excited for those too. Thank you for that. 

     You are such a sweet baby. You LOVE people. Whenever anyone smiles at you, you reply by smiling with your whole body. You have the biggest grin and your whole body can't help but wiggle when you smile. Half the time you smile so big, you have to turn your head and hide your face. It is so cute. I hope this joy you have never goes away. 

     Thank you for choosing me for your mommy. I could t imagine having anyother baby in my arms each day. I know you will grow into a great man because you have a great one to look up to and a big brother who will help keep you in line. My heart is yours... Please keep it safe. I hope you stay healthy and strong, don't risk your life unnecessarily... I took great care in making it. Please go to school, find a passion- I don't care if it is as a garbage man, Disneyland trash sweeper, lawyer, or doctor. Just make sure you find something you love. You , your brother, and your daddy are my everything. Keep growing strong and please start giving me more sleep. 

Love, 

   Your very tired momma. 

Four months!

Logan, 

     Wow. This last month has been full of traveling and awakening. You are such a fun baby. You are so sweet and happy. You laugh and smile so much now. You are so ticklish and laugh so good whenever tickled under your neck or on your chest. 

    We drove to Farmington and you got to meet so many family members. Everyone loved seeing you and you did so good during the 8 hours in the car. 

     You LOVE your brother. No matter what you are doing, if you hear your brother, you stop and look at him. You follow his voice and will even stop nursing just because Miles comes over. 

     We just had your four month appt and you are such a big boy. This is what we measured you at:

18 lbs 2 oz 99% weight for age,

weight for length is 85%, 

26"long 86 percentile,

44.5 cm head 96 percentile

     You are growing so much. I love to see the new things you can do each day. You are so good at holding up your head and put everything in your mouth! I have a feeling you will start teething soon. I am going to miss your sweet gummy smile. 

     I can't wait to see the little guy you are going to be. I imagine all the fun times you are going to have with us. It is so much fun watching you grow and learn. Just a few days ago you started really looking at things. 

     It started with sitting in your car seat and holding your binky. You just looked so hard at it. You practiced holding it, putting it in your mouth, turning it, and pulling it out. You looked so hard at that binky. It was really fun to watch. Now you are finally starting to play with toys. You will hold them and shake them. 

     I have so many hopes for you. I hope you grow to be caring and strong if heart. I hope you grow up loving and laughing and that you are best friends with your big brother. I hope you always remember the love your father and I have for you. I hope you stand up for others and never question what is right. 

     I love you so much Logan. I rock you and stare into your sweet face while thinking about all the things God has prepared for you. I know you will do great things. I know you will love fiercely. I know we have some rough patches ahead, but I also know that you are worth everything I could ever give. 

Xoxoxo, 

Your momma

Three months

My dearest Logan Walter,

     These last month has been so great with you. You have started smiling and do it so often. You love to see dad, brother, and me. You have become such a happy baby... Of course you have grumpy times, but you are mostly just a happy guy. You love to be talked to and enjoy watching brother run around. You have started siting in your bumbo and love to sit and watch all the stuff going on. You started really looking at your toys and enjoy trying to figure out how to grab it and hold it. 

    I am so glad to have you. It feels like you have always been here and yet you are barely 3 months old. I love seeing your smong face each morning and am so glad I get that each day. Please don't lose that. Keep feeling happy and excited to greet the day. 

     I am so excited for the things to come. You are so close to laughing. You are ticklish and whenever tickled, you make this funny grunting sound that is soooo close to a laugh. I'm excited to hear it when you finally let it go.  I'm excited to see you get to play with Miles. He can't wait to play with you and often brings you toys to show you. He'll place toys all over your body hoping you'll play even though you are still so young. There are things that are fun to look forward to, but please don't grow up too fast. I feel like your brother grew up so fast that I am trying to soak up your littleness.

     You make these sweet baby coos and I love to try to get you to "talk". You don't really talk often. It has to be quiet and you can't be too tired. If there are other things going on, you would rather listen to others talking or other new sounds than talk. In fact, you very favorite time to chat with me is while nursing. You will lay in my arms, stare into my eyes, and coo at me as if to profess your love for your mom. It is really sweet. I don't look forward to the day when this stops. You just sweetly make the best little sounds. 

     I love you so much Logan. You are already showing your own little personality and in excited to see what kind of baby, toddler, child, teen, and man you will become. Keep loving your family, keep enjoying the little things, and please for my sanity keep sleeping in (and don't wake at 6 like your big brother). 

Love, 

  Your momma